changed my blog song!
i love it.

徘了徊了走了 错了过了等了
累了全都困了 烦的乱的等的
都是真的
疯的想的念的 不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的 拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢

你做过的伤 放困了你爱的音
那天的我等着你等成了摆设
我的你的他的 好的坏的难的
灰的蓝的黄的 酸的甜的苦的
都还记得

非常想要忘的 绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的 真的不行那么
只得放了
环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了

我的快乐 会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐 会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

疯的想的念的 不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的 拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢

非常想要忘的 绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的 真的不行那么只得
放了放了......忘了......

I’ve wandered, I've walked, I've been wrong, I've waited
I’ve been tired, all these agitation, confusion and loneliness were real
I’ve gone mad, I’ve longed for, I’ve been insecure, I’ve been anxious
I’ve been blundered, I’ve dreamed, I’ve owned, I’ve lost
How am I to forget?

The hurt you made has closed its eyes
The music you loved to hear has stopped
I’ve waited for you till I’ve lost myself

Mine, yours, hers, the good, the bad, the difficult times,
I’ve been disheartened, I’ve gone through the sorrow,
All the aches, the sweetness, the bitterness
Still clear in my mind

The things I really wanted to forget were absolutely unforgettable
I wish to start anew; I no longer yearn for you
I should let go
The train has carried me around the island for so many days now
Suddenly I’ve realized at this moment, I no longer think of you

My happiness will return
So long as I understand how profound our love was
I will not seek to wonder if it was worthy or unworthy
My happiness will return
Leaving was not a matter of one giving a choice to another

I’ve gone mad, I’ve longed for, I’ve been insecure, I’ve been anxious
I’ve been blundered, I’ve dreamed, I’ve owned, I’ve lost
How am I to forget?

The things I really wanted to forget were absolutely unforgettable
I wish to start anew; I no longer yearn for you
I should let go

Must let go… Must be forgotten…
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got so many assignments right now.
trying to do some research just now & the kids are making a din outside.
reminds of me how long i haven't been home on most evenings.
my head is gonna burst.

1 of the assignment will be about the supernatural.
sounds interesting huh?
& they're somehow planning a visit to haunted place like OCH?
i think i'll probably help them & act as the female ghost. (to make our job easier)

just now went to mall to buy some stationery & earpiece.
then met des & co at plaza.
was waiting for the 2rubber bands.
& what i got in return was aeroplane.
他妈的!!!!!!!!!!

then played photo hunt with xingsi.
& hougang really got no secrets. sigh!
haha. :x
then Jolene came, played pool.
Went downstairs alone & saw yetlim, baba & shawn!
hahaha. coincidence! chatted awhile.
then baba drove me back.



the things i've been holding onto, it seemed to be fading away now.
so unrealistic.
suddenly i realized, what's the purpose of this?
nothing.
it isn't worth it afterall.
after all these, this isn't what i wanted as well.
things shouldn't be this way.

i'll learn to be independent.
cause it does you no good to be dependent on anybody.
friends just come & go.
good friends can be easily replaced.
the more dependent you are, the deeper the scar you'll get.
we can't be sure things will remain unchanged 10years down the road.

i don't understand why people talk this way & behave another.
i never wanna know their reasons for doing so.
i think i've got split personality. die. :/


get back on the right track.
i'm totally out of control.

i realized i'm blogging 2-3days of stuffs in 1post.
& i realized my memory is failing me. =.="
old alrdy lo!



250808; monday
went school in the morning. & i got to know of a pretty girl.
at first, i thought she was 中国人or something.
but then i relized her english was just slang.
hahha. she's quite a nice person.
& she's 20 but doesn't quite look like it.

it was quite awkward, actually.
cause she's like an extrovert & i'm introvert (to strangers).
& i feel so embarassed cause she did most of the talking.
got into the same group as her for group assignment.


went town to buy storybook.
Breaking Dawn. hahah! i love that book. ((((:
got myself a new top/shorts as well.
then i went back home to get my lappy.
bought food for lulu & went up to des house.
i told lulu he elbowed my face.

lu: huh? got meh? when?
me: got! that day lor, i act as ghost scare you & you elbow my face. don't rmb? you still got say sorry.
lu: really ah? then you deserved it!

AS EXPECTED!!!

hahah! that bastard. after that, i fell asleep for awhile.
then went over to plaza with des & marcus.

charmaine called me, told me something.
hahaha. got me so excited. hougang is so damn small. :/
i hope fun is coming.

went home to put my stuffs,
came out later in the night.
before gg home, meet up with charmaine to chat for awhile.
((:


tuesday; 260808
sneaked off during break time. hahah!
no choice. lesson is super boring! could just fall asleep.

went sher's house.
slacked & chatted with her.
then accompanied her to see doctor then kovan to buy her stuffs.
slacked again.

went back her house cause she needed my legs & hips for experiment.
hahah! :x
then i started trying her jeans & skirt.
so funny. i look like some mad woman with the short jeans.

have a good laugh!

looks like '38' though. hahs!



after that, went back to hg plaza to meet lulu & co.
lulu was supposed to go back to surrender.
then they had sushi for dinner.

they went off to des house & i went home.
super good girl. sigh.



todayyyyyyyyyy, went to school AGAIN!
when i was on my way there, jw called me and crapped.

& since i was so late, i decided to go in during break.
Sok woke up & caught me and jw talking on the phone.
LOL!!!!!!!!!

then the nice girl helped me with something.
& she actually apologized cause she thinks she's bossy. (cause she helped me)
lol. such a cute person. apologizing when i should actually thank her.
haha.

&& now here i am, updating my blog.
i'm gg out for dinner with lulu & co later on.
then will be sending him back to his camp with jw they all later on.

no more stunts from him!
lol.

my clean table. (or so i thought)




i suddenly remembered i've got tons of baby photos to post.
hahahah! :x

& i've got like cracked lips, ulcers.
wtf. )):



i've just discovered something very sickening.
i see you're alrdy planning your revenge.
wow, this always changes when you've got someone to back you up.

hide & move your family out when you've got no friends.
& when you've got a miserable few- you know what you do. (:
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& on tuesday night, went over to des house for mahjong.

with linny, Sok, Jw.

he said i tricked him into saying okay. Cause he wanted to sleep. But i swear i nv hear that he's sick. my poor xiao laogong. lol.

maybe i'll make honey drink for him. LOL!

After mj session, we're all discussing how much we've changed,

compared to 2years ago.

omg. i have sucky pictures in linny's phone. haaa.

then we slacked & chatted at 684 till morning.

lulu & dixon was there also.

i heard about des' roast pig joke.

it was hilarious. :D