Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
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♥ Sunday, August 31, 2008♥
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on wednesday night, went mall to have dinner with lu & co.
then went to block to slack.
des was being exceptionally irritating that day.
hahs.
& they claimed they're F4. hahaha!
then jw's dad drove lu back to his camp.
): we'll see lulu soon.
280808; thursday
i stayed at home the whole night!!!!!!!!!
went home after school.
such a good girl.
mum was funny.
she thought i'm gg out again, & i said no.
then she frowned & said, 'whenever i'm not at home, you-'
then she like don't know how to say alrdy, so i helped her.
'you meant to say, whenever you're at home, i'm not at home. & now i'm home, you need to go out huh?'
then she nodded and laughed.
bi says my mum doesn't look like those kind of mums who would say such stuffs.
290808; friday
met fidel for breakfast.
chatted on msn the previous night & i was telling her,
don't oversleep! when the alarm wakes us up, must think of McGriddles instead of sleep.
hahahah!
& we crapped alot of msn. haaha!
planned to meet at 10am, but we reached ard 10.40?
lol!
worst of all, we didn't get to eat McGriddles!!!!!!!!!
)))))))))):
they say no more & its lunch when its only 10.50.
idiots.
heavy breakfast.
after brunch, went to des house.
then i took a nap there.
when i woke up, he went downstairs to buy more food.
oh my.
i think i'm having a monstrous appetitie.
heh.
went over to jw's hse in the evening.
shermin came later on.
& we went to meet royce & baba at 524.
wanted to have dinner buy none ate. lol.
baba drove us back to jw hse there.
super funny. he thought shermin was in the car alrdy (she's in the toilet), and he drove off.
luckily i stopped him on time.
HAHAHA!
slacked with royce downstairs before gg up to pack our stuffs.
off to des house.
while waiting for cab, saw a female chicken.
but she didn't see us. haaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaa.
then played mj.
enaye & pw was there as well.
like finally, she got time to meet us.
hahah.
then des was our entertainer.
he and his tranny voice(something new) & china accent again
was funny & sher took a video clip of it.
lol.
300808; sunday
movie time! but everybody was like super late.
planned to watch the 7.45pm show.
none could make it. (actually, is only the 2rubber bands, jw & sok)
hahha. then wanted to watch the 8.40pm show.
those 2rubber bands couldn't make it as well.
decided on midnight show at J8.
hahahah. booked using the AXS machine at plaza.
then went off to des house.
bought soooooooooo much food. didn't finish it though.
cabbed there & met a friendly taxi driver.
told him we're all 18 & he didn't believe.
& he even wanna intro his 16year old son to us. LOL!
4bia. not for the faint-hearted.
hahaha. maybe i'm exaggerating. lol.
4girls sat tgth.
the guys sat at another row.
sher: eh, are you watching or not?
me: ya ya. i watching! (peeking through my fingers)
then i saw sher covering her eyes with jacket, i thought she was peeking as well.
sher: eh, what was that just now?
me: that female ghost lah! keep ask me watch, so i can tell you is it?
sher: hahaha
me: =.="
sok was pissed because sher & enaye kept scaring her.
one kept jabbing her thighs and another was was jabbing her arms.
LOL!!!
after movie, went back to des house.
then to jw hse. grr.
left for home first.
jw is super suprised. proud of me right?
hahahh!
&& for today, jw & des told me to go meet them for lunch.
but i was super slow and they got tired of wating for me. hahs.
then met them at jw hse downstairs.
after that, do shit job!
accompanied jw to go fetch sok's parents & take the paint home for them.
super heavy.
so funny, jw is like an obedient son-in-law.
hahs.
then we walked over to night market, bought food.
then to buy porridge.
then cabbed to green for milk tea.
then to his house.
hahahah! hougang tour.
then accompanied des to shijie's house take discs.
back to jw's hse.
went home ard 9plus.
but charmine called & went downstairs to accompany her eat.
i've got school tmr! :/
its been kind of long since i've written something real here.
i don't know what is it about anyway.
life seemed happy enough for me right now, though there's still something missing.
oh well, i should be contented with what God is giving me & appreciate it.
Labels: china, macs, MAHJONG, MOVIE
( 11:13 PM )
♥ Wednesday, August 27, 2008♥
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i realized i'm blogging 2-3days of stuffs in 1post.
& i realized my memory is failing me. =.="
old alrdy lo!
250808; monday
went school in the morning. & i got to know of a pretty girl.
at first, i thought she was 中国人or something.
but then i relized her english was just slang.
hahha. she's quite a nice person.
& she's 20 but doesn't quite look like it.
it was quite awkward, actually.
cause she's like an extrovert & i'm introvert (to strangers).
& i feel so embarassed cause she did most of the talking.
got into the same group as her for group assignment.
went town to buy storybook.
Breaking Dawn. hahah! i love that book. ((((:
got myself a new top/shorts as well.
then i went back home to get my lappy.
bought food for lulu & went up to des house.
i told lulu he elbowed my face.
lu: huh? got meh? when?
me: got! that day lor, i act as ghost scare you & you elbow my face. don't rmb? you still got say sorry.
lu: really ah? then you deserved it!
AS EXPECTED!!!
hahah! that bastard. after that, i fell asleep for awhile.
then went over to plaza with des & marcus.
charmaine called me, told me something.
hahaha. got me so excited. hougang is so damn small. :/
i hope fun is coming.
went home to put my stuffs,
came out later in the night.
before gg home, meet up with charmaine to chat for awhile.
((:
tuesday; 260808
sneaked off during break time. hahah!
no choice. lesson is super boring! could just fall asleep.
went sher's house.
slacked & chatted with her.
then accompanied her to see doctor then kovan to buy her stuffs.
slacked again.
went back her house cause she needed my legs & hips for experiment.
hahah! :x
then i started trying her jeans & skirt.
so funny. i look like some mad woman with the short jeans.
have a good laugh!
looks like '38' though. hahs!
after that, went back to hg plaza to meet lulu & co.
lulu was supposed to go back to surrender.
then they had sushi for dinner.
they went off to des house & i went home.
super good girl. sigh.
todayyyyyyyyyy, went to school AGAIN!
when i was on my way there, jw called me and crapped.
& since i was so late, i decided to go in during break.
Sok woke up & caught me and jw talking on the phone.
LOL!!!!!!!!!
then the nice girl helped me with something.
& she actually apologized cause she thinks she's bossy. (cause she helped me)
lol. such a cute person. apologizing when i should actually thank her.
haha.
&& now here i am, updating my blog.
i'm gg out for dinner with lulu & co later on.
then will be sending him back to his camp with jw they all later on.
no more stunts from him!
lol.
my clean table. (or so i thought)
i suddenly remembered i've got tons of baby photos to post.
hahahah! :x
& i've got like cracked lips, ulcers.
wtf. )):
i've just discovered something very sickening.
i see you're alrdy planning your revenge.
wow, this always changes when you've got someone to back you up.
hide & move your family out when you've got no friends.
& when you've got a miserable few- you know what you do. (:
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& i realized my memory is failing me. =.="
old alrdy lo!
250808; monday
went school in the morning. & i got to know of a pretty girl.
at first, i thought she was 中国人or something.
but then i relized her english was just slang.
hahha. she's quite a nice person.
& she's 20 but doesn't quite look like it.
it was quite awkward, actually.
cause she's like an extrovert & i'm introvert (to strangers).
& i feel so embarassed cause she did most of the talking.
got into the same group as her for group assignment.
went town to buy storybook.
Breaking Dawn. hahah! i love that book. ((((:
got myself a new top/shorts as well.
then i went back home to get my lappy.
bought food for lulu & went up to des house.
i told lulu he elbowed my face.
lu: huh? got meh? when?
me: got! that day lor, i act as ghost scare you & you elbow my face. don't rmb? you still got say sorry.
lu: really ah? then you deserved it!
AS EXPECTED!!!
hahah! that bastard. after that, i fell asleep for awhile.
then went over to plaza with des & marcus.
charmaine called me, told me something.
hahaha. got me so excited. hougang is so damn small. :/
i hope fun is coming.
went home to put my stuffs,
came out later in the night.
before gg home, meet up with charmaine to chat for awhile.
((:
tuesday; 260808
sneaked off during break time. hahah!
no choice. lesson is super boring! could just fall asleep.
went sher's house.
slacked & chatted with her.
then accompanied her to see doctor then kovan to buy her stuffs.
slacked again.
went back her house cause she needed my legs & hips for experiment.
hahah! :x
then i started trying her jeans & skirt.
so funny. i look like some mad woman with the short jeans.
have a good laugh!
looks like '38' though. hahs!
after that, went back to hg plaza to meet lulu & co.
lulu was supposed to go back to surrender.
then they had sushi for dinner.
they went off to des house & i went home.
super good girl. sigh.
todayyyyyyyyyy, went to school AGAIN!
when i was on my way there, jw called me and crapped.
& since i was so late, i decided to go in during break.
Sok woke up & caught me and jw talking on the phone.
LOL!!!!!!!!!
then the nice girl helped me with something.
& she actually apologized cause she thinks she's bossy. (cause she helped me)
lol. such a cute person. apologizing when i should actually thank her.
haha.
&& now here i am, updating my blog.
i'm gg out for dinner with lulu & co later on.
then will be sending him back to his camp with jw they all later on.
no more stunts from him!
lol.
my clean table. (or so i thought)
i suddenly remembered i've got tons of baby photos to post.
hahahah! :x
& i've got like cracked lips, ulcers.
wtf. )):
i've just discovered something very sickening.
i see you're alrdy planning your revenge.
wow, this always changes when you've got someone to back you up.
hide & move your family out when you've got no friends.
& when you've got a miserable few- you know what you do. (:
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遇到- my favourite song of 'It Started With a Kiss'. ((:
你身上专属的陌生味道
是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望来知道
竟是我们相隔着一个街角
这么久了我还是可以看到
感觉得到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰
你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我比谁都更明白你的重要
这么久了我就决定了
决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀依然让我靠
'We finally meet after going around in a circle.
I understand your importance more than anyone else does.
It's been a long time coming and I have since decided,
Decided that, now that I've held your hand, I'm not going to let go.
We finally meet after going around in a circle.
And I have promised myself never to be like the foolish people who create trouble for themselves again.
Because I am sure of what I want.
As long as your shoulder is there for me to lean on, just like before.'
Labels: china, ghost, laughs, lyrics, music, SCHOOL
( 5:22 PM )
♥ Sunday, August 24, 2008♥
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loooooooooong update before i go to bed. ((:friday; 220808
went to school in the afternoon.
the lecturer is funny. & his nose/hairstyle looks like michael jackson.
hahahah! imagine that.
forgot to bring my jacket, cause i thought lecture theatre isn't that cold. ):
went to compass to meet up with sher, val, baba, manfred, junxing.
slacked & chatted at MOS Burger.
the weather is soooo cold.
then went back to hg to meet des & mac.
Went over to 684 to meet jw & sok for dinner.
what a full dinner we had. hahaha.
leftovers. :]
& he was entertaining us with his 联合国 accent.
but it was obviously 中国 accent. hahaha! super funny when he scolded vulagrities.
I even recorded it down.
next time if i'm unhappy, i'll definitely laugh after listening to this.
went home at ard 4-5plus?
mac, dixon & des went for supper. hahs.
i still miss my fringe. :/
saturday; 230808
woke up in the late afternn.
Sher called me to join her & ShiJie for dinner at 805.
Called desmond along. lulu came as well.
After dinner, slacked awhile upstairs.
took lots of photos! hahs.
then went downstairs while the guys were playing dota.
then called royce to join us at Joe's corner as sher wanted to talk to him.
lol.
went pasar malam next. no more kueh tu tu!
jw & sok came. bought some snacks & went up to des house.
i realized i'm eating alot. :x
frankie, lulu & baolai came afterwards.
poor frankie helping des to clean up his place. hahah.
watched this true horror movie sok showed us.
damn bloody & gross!
desmond is soooo timid. hahah!
anyways, they started to use the lappy instead of watching shows.
super bored. so i chatted on the phone.
ordered macs for them.
&& i acted as sadoka to scare them when they're sleeping.
1st, i went into the room & saw that lulu is slping.
but he like nv close his eyes leh. nv see properly cos the room is dark.
then i cover my face with my hair & keep tapping him.
no response from him! then i poke his armpit & he jumped & laughed!
LOL! he's not asleep!
2nd, wanted to scare jiawen. but i tap him until i pissed off,
he also don't wake up.
SLEEPING GOD INDEED!
3rd, i went in to scare lulu again. then he alrdy asleep.
i practically crawled in and wanted to tap him,
but i think my strength too big. in the end, i slapped his chest.
then he got shocked and elbowed my face.
(suay suay, my face at his elbow there. why so suay?)
then he say, 'oh, sorry sorry.' with those sleepy voice & went back sleep.
hahahahah! but i still think its fun! LOL!!!!!!
then my super nice husband take ice and massage my face for me.
hahahah.
lol. went home at ard 6?
&&&&& for today, meet up with des at his house downstairs.
then the 2 of us looked like idiots cause we're wearing hoodies. (it was raining)
hahahah! walked to 684 to meet sok & jw for dinner.
oh yeah, i finally get to eat kueh tu tu. hahs.
then to des house. linny joined us.
plaza next. they wanna go drinking.
then me, sok & linny started playing photohunt.
new high score! hahahah.
with 1dollar, we played 4times. hahah!
anyways, they left for serangoon & i went home.
such a good girl. sigh.
cause i got school the next day.
Labels: camwhore, china, MAHJONG, night market, SCHOOL
( 11:40 PM )
♥ Thursday, August 21, 2008♥
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if you think this is gonna ruin me,
think again.
TIRED!
yesterday, meet zhenyong, des & dixon at mall for dinner. (long john)
they're so nice to accompany me for dinner, though they've alrdy eaten. (:
in the end, dixon & des still ate something.
okay. during dinner.
those idiots were behaving suspiciously by looking through my phone etc.
& zhenyong began asking stupid questions. 0.0
bleah.
jiawen & sok arrived nt long later.
went des house for mahjong session.
& after that, stupid desmond started scaring me with the
'headless uncle of 6th floor' ghost story.
totally freaked me out & i pulled him to take the lift with me.
hahs.
then he pulled dixon along. LOL.
& dixon thought we're stupid.
he purposely pressed the button for the 6th floor.
boo.
& they started bombing my phone with calls & msgs when i'm on my way home.
ass. luckily i read the msgs when i'm home. hahahah!
slept super late due to unforeseen circumstances.
for today, skipped school.
okay, i don't want to. but i'm super tired!
bought breakfast up to des house.
then in the morning, was msg-ing sok.
on topic about legs.
& i think the way i phrased it was funny.
& i caused her to have a bad dream about short legs.
and sher was on the phone with me in the afternn.
& i was talking about some lame logic with her.
about some kind of people who sleep with their mouths open.
hahahah! & sher keeps laughing.
LOL! i created much laughter today. :D
sher & sok came in the late afternn. hahs.
macdonald for dinner. so full!
time to watch my diet!
i've got afternn lessons tmr! ):
& i've downloaded a programme in my lappy.
damn cool! can watch alot of shows & movies. :D
i wanna find 1 day & watch ghost movies with someone! (:
& i'm lazy to upload photos. (:
so cute! but its overweight. :x
shall tuck in early tonight.
gdnight!
( 11:50 PM )
♥ Tuesday, August 19, 2008♥
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cont'd.....bloody hell jolene played me out on sunday.
idiot. anyway, went to repair my phone on sunday,
YAY! ((:
but the person tell me to sell is asap.
cause it might spoil anytime & its nt worth it to repair. )):
then while repairing phone, suddenly felt very giddy.
& feel like vomitting. ))):
& i broke out in sweat.
i thought i'm gonna die or what.
was super scared and called Sok. & she told me to go home faster.
but i sat there for super long.
i think my time is up...soon.
oops.
went to buy doughnuts for jw.
cabbed over to fetch him & sok then to Frankie's house.
Went home earlier as i got school the next day.
anyway, told royce abt my poor phone & he told me to get rid of it.
but i told him i liked that phone & he said he'll try to get warranty card for me.
so nice of him!
my phone got hope of surviving. hahaha. ((((:
& he said i felt giddy cause i nv eat?
lol.
180808; monday
first day of school. met fidel at interchange and bus-ed to school.
super late. :x
went in during break time. hahs.
its in lecture theatre. first time in there.
hard to concentrate. beside me were cheena ppl.
oh god. so many of them leh.
then after sch, went home.
suddenly felt like seeing my baby photos.
so i told mum abt it.
oh man. i missed those times.
got fidel's one also! super funny.
i'll post them up after i scan them. hahahah!
meet lydia to borrow thing from her.
& she agreed to meet up for catching up session soon.
lol.
went to mall to buy stuffs.
HAPPY! ((:
marie! my F.P (financial planner) says its junk! ):
jw's hse next.
he went camp & sok's alone. LOL.
then i bluffed jw say sok nv pick up my call & i'm at home.
when he returned, i hid under the blanket and sok lie on top of me & pretend to sleep.
then jiawen say, 'oi, oi! why never pick up my call?'
sok: hmm. orh orh!
then i came out and say, 'orh orh!'
LOL! jw's face stoned and look at us, then his mouth wide opened.
omg, so stupid of him. so obvious & he didn't know i under the blanket.
hahahahahahah!
then he scold us, say both us good!
heeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
& i know why sok & jw is always the late ones.
i finally saw how draggy they are. SIGH!
dinner at 805.
then went home after awhile.
school life makes me a good girl... :/
i slept at 12am.
190808; tuesday
just reached home not long ago.
went school in the afternn.
on the way to school, thought of something.
Msg-ed Sok. i think its a great idea.
Even shermin says so.
lets hope i'll finish this mission soon!
i'm still not used to the big class.
so distracting.
See Mr. J again.
:/
then went plaza to meet shermin & co.
dinner.
oh yeah. I told Shi Jie to meet me for dinner this friday.
Cause i'm leaving to china for attachment. & it'll be my last dinner.
& i haven't seen him for a long time.
then here i am, at home at this early hour.
i'm such a good girl. (again)
hahahah!
i feel like vomitting again. ):
(due to the tonic mum boiled for me) ):
& i've got motivation to pack my room le!
cause i wanna put stuffs into that marie thing.
heehee.
Mr. Right? ((:
( 9:15 PM )
♥ Sunday, August 17, 2008♥
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SCHOOL STARTS TMR! & i forgot to check the timetable until yesterday.
:/
& it totally sucks.
i think i've got 4modules.
& i've only got 1 week of study break.
(previously, 3 modules & 2 weeks study break!)
eee. & not to mention the long study hours.
i think most of them are full days.
& mostly are 2-5pm.
hmm.
shall study hard yeah! hahaha.
anyways,
back to what i did a few days ago.
140808; thursday
as usual, woke up ard afternn time, then planned to meet jolene.
before that, met royce & warren at 401.
then warren drove to mall there.
Met jolene while the 2 of them went plaza.
walked ard to see phones but didn't see anything.
then jolene dropped me off at 684.
dinner with des, lu, jw & sok.
frankie came after dinner, went to des house.
i think his house got some kind of spell.
can make lu & jiawen fall asleep always.
went home awhile later.
150808; friday
hmm. shermin came to my hse to disturb my sleep.
then went out. visit Kayslyn's grandparents.
miss her lots. ):
sigh. then went over to mall.
new line etc.
& i wanna repair my N80?
though its old, i like that phone. ):
went plaza. then slacked with royce at kpt.
& as more girls joined us, he became more shy.
lol!
then went up. & came down again, after sok & jw arrived.
due to the undecisive minds of many, i went to play mj over at aldrin's house.
hahaha. went home in the morning.
160808; saturday
everybody was planning a movie in the afternoon/night.
but everybody overslept.
then went meet sher & yetlim at my hse downstairs.
& sher wanted to go home & bathe.
cabbed to kovan.
then jw & sok came fetch me to AMK Hub,
for the movie, The 12 Lotus.
was touching, sad, funny.
i think the girl is so so so poor thing.
& the guy is a jerk.
&& my xiao laogong is being very nice!
he carried my bag for me! :D
then i said he must sit next to me cos his another wife isn't here.
during the movie, i tried to be funny with him,
me: eh, you look in front. (lu, mac, dixon, frankie)
him: yah, why?
me: don't you think you very fortunate, all of them so lonely but you at least got girl beside you.
him: (give me that retarded face and nodded his head almost unwillingly.)
hahahah! & all of us kept laughing at the part when zhen yong came out & started scolding.
his voice so funny! okay.
its gonna be the next big joke in hg. LOL!
after movies, 684 for awhile. then mac.
the guys are behaving like monkeys.
hahahah.
then went over to jw house.
promised him something & i'll try my best to do it. :x
just came home this morning.
alright. gg out to meet jolene soon.
still haven't prepared. LOL!
come home early today, cause school's starting tmr.
Labels: MAHJONG, MOVIE, SCHOOL
( 7:36 PM )
♥ Thursday, August 14, 2008♥
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And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.
i haven't realized its thursday alrdy.
oh man.
school starts next week.
but i'm kind of excited.
better than sleeping everyday away. :/
last night, meet up with val, sher, alex at green.
they're having their dinner there.
then went upstairs to chill.
yetlim, maltida, sok came later on.
okay. maybe we should change our slacking place to there.
LOL.
then saw ivan, royce, baba & co.
haha.
chit chatted. talked about lame jokes.
& shermin's 'valekum'.
hahah!
after that, sok and me walked to hg park to wait for jw & co.
CHARMAINE'S BIRTHDAY.
((:
they planning to cut cake for her.
and when Frankie arrived with the cake, she almost cried.
hahaha.
meddling with the candles. 
fat bullying the small sized one.
SMILE!
trying hard to blow the last candle.
the 2monkeys planning to smash cake alrdy.
they said, 'we make it easier for you, we put the cake on plate, easier to bite candle out.'
then they hold the plate for charmaine and ask her bite.
before she bite, the cake is alrdy on her face. LOL.
go away lah!
ah!!!!!!!!!!
chocolate.... ):
the youngest couple! hahaha!
see! they're so entertained by 'valekum' as well! (:
& on tuesday night, went over to des house for mahjong.
with linny, Sok, Jw.
he said i tricked him into saying okay. Cause he wanted to sleep. But i swear i nv hear that he's sick. my poor xiao laogong. lol.
maybe i'll make honey drink for him. LOL!
After mj session, we're all discussing how much we've changed,
compared to 2years ago.
omg. i have sucky pictures in linny's phone. haaa.
then we slacked & chatted at 684 till morning.
lulu & dixon was there also.
i heard about des' roast pig joke.
it was hilarious. :D
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on.
(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
there's got to be something for my soul somewhere.
(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Labels: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, laughs, lyrics, MAHJONG, music
( 6:38 PM )
♥ Tuesday, August 12, 2008♥
☆
when there's so many hidden secrets,
what's the point of everything?
Nowadays, all of us have our own problems to think about.
that's why sometimes, i'd rather keep my own troubles to myself,
rather than to give more troubles to my girls.
Ytd night was at Punggol End.
Sat on the beach & stared at the waves, which seemed especially strong last night.
He told me alot of things, I know its true.
But i can't get any of them into my head to stop thinking.
He told me, i'm no longer the same.
He told me, i no longer smile like the past.
Someone told me, once you get over this,
you'll be a stronger person.
Last night, told Sok I really changed alot.
She agreed, and she finds the change in me was scary.
In the past, i was the most crappy one.
always the one to be scolded for lame jokes.
always the one with the most questions.
I asked her if she wanted me to be back to the old me,
and she nodded her head immediately.
hahs.
i'll put in effort to remember the old me.
its difficult, but i'll try.
all i need is time.
i'll be back...
soon.
回忆里想起模糊的小时候
云朵漂浮在蓝蓝的天空
那时候的你说
要和我手牵手 一起走到时间的尽头
从此以后我都不敢抬头看
彷佛我的天空失去了颜色
从那一天起 我忘记了呼吸
眼泪啊永远不再 不再哭泣
我们的爱 过了就不再回来
直到现在我还默默的等待
我们的爱我明白 以变成你的负担
只是永远 我都放不开
最后的温暖 你给的温暖
不要再问你是否爱我
现在我想要自由的天空
远离开这被捆绑的世界
不再寂寞
Reminiscing about my blurry childhood
Clouds floating through beautiful blue sky
At that time you said,
You wanna take my hand and walk with me till the end of time.
Since then, I'm afraid to look up
It's like my sky has lost their colors
After that day, I've forgotten to breathe
My tears will no longer fall
Our love has gone and won't come back
Until now, I'm still waiting silently
Our love, I realized, has become a burden for you
It's forever that I can't let go
Of the last warmth, the warmth you gave
Won't ask if you still love me
Right now I wish for my own freedom
Far away from this constrained world
No longer alone
Labels: lyrics, music, thoughts, troubles
( 6:35 PM )
♥ Monday, August 11, 2008♥
☆
you're not here for me,
afterall.
i don't want to turn this way either.
looking back, i really miss the old me.
where you will say how stupid i am, how simple-minded i am.
times when i couldn't get what any of you all were saying.
times when i would just sit there and stare into space while you all continue talking about topics i don't understand.
now these 2words have no connection with me.
in the past, i would get angry with my girls over a certain matter.
but now, i'm in no position to be angry with you all.
during the hard times, i've given you all so much headaches.
guessed you all didn't know what to do with me either.
all i can say is sorry.
so many things are happening at the same time,
they're suffocating me.
i don't know how to handle any of these.
i'm really tired of pretending to be strong.
this morning, as i opened my eyes,
the first thing i thought about was
how good it is if you're still my listening ear.
you've got no idea how much hurt you've left with me.
i hate what i'm seeing now,
i wished it was all a nightmare.
i'm sorry to all those i've disappoint.
i'm missing you alot now, though i know nothing would bring you back.
i don't wanna believe what i'm seeing. i really hope this isn't true.
god, don't be so cruel to me, will you?
i know i haven't been a good girl recently.
but this is really too much for me to take.
take me away from all these pain, i'm really breaking down,
this is my limit.
( 4:55 PM )
♥ Sunday, August 10, 2008♥
☆
Just came home not long ago.just now went to meet Enaye at mall.
Walked for awhile and went coffeeshop for dinner.
Serangoon Gardens' Bulldog with JiaWen, Lulu, Pw & co.
sudden decision. LOL.
3towers of beer.
but didn't drink much cause i'm full. hahah.
i think pw was the first player down.
Anyways, last night, meet up with the girls at mall.
Had Cafe Cartel for dinner.
Unhappy things happened.
Sorry, shermin.
was supposed to be a happy day but-
CantoRock after everything.
Then went to des house cause i wanted to see how's jiawen.
but he's slept like a pig.
Hope he's fine.
Talked very long with lulu.
& steamboat for breakfast. hahaha!
I hope everything and everybody will be fine.
including sok.
cooping yourself up at home, avoiding us won't help.
i'm feeling abit tired alrdy.
think i shall turn in early today. (maybe 5-6am)
longer post next time.
Labels: cafe cartel, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, pub, troubles
( 11:59 PM )
♥ Saturday, August 9, 2008♥
☆
butterfly effect
just came back from breakfast with chiwawa & lulu.
they told me,
my face is becoming more shag.
i hope they're just lying to me. ):
last night, met up with the girls.
joe's corner.
talked alot.
then chatted with jw & sok at my house there.
not much of a chat.
more like, confessions and quarrels.
but its all settled, i think.
all i can say is, sorry for everything.
when you went in, we brought you nothing but bad news.
the same goes to it when you're out. ):
sorry for all the disappointment.
i forgot to mention, received Sam's letter a few days back.
definitely brought back so much memories.
i miss Sam & Kayslyn.
bet if they were here for me, i wouldn't be how i am now.
Sam would cheer me up with her jokes, & I would be too occupied with Kayslyn's complains to bother about anything else. haaa. :x
but, i chose this path. i'll face the consequences myself. =/
then again, think of the disappointment they will have in me,
& i don't know how to face them.
i've experienced so much disappointment in the past,
and it really hurts.
ironic.
msg-ed Sok last night, cos i couldn't get to sleep.
i don't think she saw my msg, cos she fell asleep.
i hope i'm not being selfish by doing it my own way.
another sorry.
argh. time to sleep.
later meeting my girls to celebrate shermin's birthday.
not to forget,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE.
i'm proud to be s'porean yeahhhhh. hahs.
Labels: thoughts
( 9:31 AM )
♥ Friday, August 8, 2008♥
☆
once again,
i've failed another one.
tuesday; 5th august-wednesday; 6th august
woke up & prepared. jw & sok came & fetched me to Cine to meet up with the rest.
Bought tickets for Money No Enough 2.
Went arcade play.
truck driver & passenger
The movie is funny. hahaha. Can pratically hear lulu laughing so loudly. LOL.
And the rest of us went Balcony to slack.
hahaha.
schoolgirl!
Then went home.
Spent the night at jw house with Sok, Enaye & Pw.
was fuuuuuun. ((:
&& i received a msg from kays' sister. ):
i miss her. :,(
Then went home in the noon.
Slept for awhile.
Went to meet Jolene & Sher for dinner.
Then both of them went off.
& I went to look for dixon to slack.
anyways, the weather was super hot.
Accompanied him to see doctor,
cause jw wanted mc. haha.
& i took the flu medicine back.
LOL.
Went up woodball with him.
Saw JiQing & KaiJun. hahah.
she say i changed alot!
Enaye came awhile later & we went down.
Accompanied her eat & i went home.
thursday; 7th august
woke up super late. :/
& it was raining heavily.
went Compasspoint to meet Kelly, Chouwoon, JiQing, KaiJun, XianHan.
Audrey came awhile later & they bought a cake to celebrate her birthday.
hahahah. she's super poor thing,
keep kena beaten up by kelly & jiqing.
Had KFC for dinner.
&& when leaving, princes hugged me and told me to eat more.
& she cried while i had tears in my eyes.
suddenly thought of the past and then now.
sigh.
so sweet of her.
thanks for the concern, princess.
i'll try to eat more. (:
& don't worry about me. i'll be fine.
love you loads. (:
hmm. then went to find Sok & co at Crescendo.
a sms pissed me off.
like wtf, i'm not very close to you & you don't have the right to say me.
humph!
and you still dare to msg me today??
dream on about having me to reply your msg. BLEAH.
it was still raining when i went home. :/
boring boring.
finally get to meet Shermin & YetLim later on. (:
miss them. (:
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