♥ Wednesday, January 31, 2007♥
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uh. im under depression lately again. things really cannot be right in my life. just a few days ago, I started to have all these feelings that the word trust was no longer in my life. there's no trust between friends and I, and worse still, no trust at home. uh, why not i try moving out of the house and you all can decide wad to do? I could have made myself clearer but I dun wan to.
Just a few days ago at CME lessons, Miss Ng almost made us cry. that's right, everybody has a sad past. Sometimes, I'll think, why did I have such a childhood? Is that why, so many ppl are yearning to grow up. Home seemed like the best place to be in fer everyone else, but why don't I feel that way? ok, i ought to shut up.Just a few days ago, read in the news that Xu Wei Lun has passed away. I was like so shock. She is 1 of my favourite actress in idol dramas. And those reporters are so heartless. Why can't they just mind their own business? If I had a friend who's in hospital and i cant get to see her due to all those reporters, I'll kick their ass. Then all her friends were so so so upset. If I were to go off 1 day, would I even have friends who will cry for me, upset that they've lost a friend. friends who'll still rmb taht I once exist years down the road after my death. haha. dumbo, I don't even know why I'm saying all these la. you know, Xu Wei Lun is so pretty and has a bright future, she has tons of unfinished work, I wonder why Heaven chose to take her away so fast. Maybe because, God wanted her to be by his side. haiss. this is all too sudden man, still can't believe that she went off just like that. almost cried when watching those news of hers. She'll be the prettiest angel in heaven. I hope she'll live well in another place.Labels: death, friends, trust
( 11:51 PM )
♥ Saturday, December 23, 2006♥
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hmms. just feeling so sick of some ppl nowadays. hais. my life's just filled with hypocrites. they need you; they'll come to you. if not, i bet they don't give a damn if i were to die now.friends that do not contact you everyday might not be those who care lesser about you, they might be the ones who are true to you.on the other hand, friends that call you everyday might just be the fair-weather friends. right?
HAHAS. im talking until so chim. first time in my blog. bo bian, too much rubbish stored in me.i gess i rmb what my pri sch teachers told me. 'you might think they're your true friends but they are not. You might not have a true friend now but you will find one. i found mine when i was in my twenties.'so i guess, i have to wait until that old? hahas.there are too many things which i dont know how to express to my friends. maybe i just love to keep things in my heart.
can i go to a place where nobody knows me? then i can lead a new life. maybe i'll be happier than what i am now.
aiyaa. take this entry as crapp. im just crappin. nobody will care anyway.Labels: friends
( 11:09 PM )